Experiance - On my way towards Human Revolution

Hello Everyone. I am Anupam Chatterjee, YMD member, Howrah Dist., Kolkata. I will be sharing my latest experience which revolves around the inner transformation I experienced very recently.

During the past several months, I had heard about rumors which were being passed along within local BSG members by a few other members. I had protested and confronted them directly on a few occasions and had hoped that the confusions were all cleared up and problems were resolved. Unfortunately, I was wrong. On the 10th of November, 2007, I received a call in the morning from a leader and was informed about some recent mistakes on my part which to be honest I was unaware of.

Throughout that day and the following day, I received several phone calls from various leaders which usually ended up in conflicts amidst severe allegations. I was extremely hurt, because at the source of these allegations were people whom I had trusted a lot and specially one who really meant a lot to me. I was extremely angry because I had been denied the chance of a fair debate. I knew it within my heart; if given an opportunity within a fair debate, I could prove the others wrong and show them reason.

I was completely drained emotionally and was direction less. My life was obviously spiraling down towards hell and the problems just kept escalating. Under such circumstances, on the night of the 11th, I received a call from my best friend and shakubuku parent who stays in Delhi. I was surprised to know that he had already been briefed about the whole incident. He told me, he had a talk with someone from Kolkata who had told him everything about the incident from his perspective. But since, my friend knew me from childhood and I was like his younger brother, he knew me too well to believe the allegations against me to be all true.

For the first time in two days, I was receptive to someone. This guy trusted me and was not keen on only piling up allegations upon me. He suggested, I should chant a lot and find a way out of my situation based on daimoku and studies. He also warned me that according to him, my life was falling out of sync with my practice and I should chant a lot for wisdom in order to seek out the places where I was falling short.

I followed his advice and started chanting earnestly for wisdom. I was also studying a lot. I read about the concept of Esho Funi (oneness of self and environment). Although, I had read it numerous times before, this time it was different. I realized, my environment was acting negatively because I was looking towards it with a negative attitude. While reading about the “temple issue” once more, I was able to co-relate the events of the incident with my life. I realized, Sensei and the SGI were faced with severe criticism and were denied a fair debate. But, through perseverance, a positive attitude and sincere efforts, they were able to prove all the allegations against them wrong. The priesthood was exposed and the SGI emerged as completely victorious. The sun can fall behind the clouds for a while. But, the moment the skies are clear, the ground is clearly visible. Similarly, one can overlook the facts or remain ignorant towards it for a while. But, they cannot remain like that forever. Somehow, I was able to discover a new level of stillness and happiness in my life.

My joy knew no bounds when a few days back, one of the members who is hardly known to me, sent me a wonderful message stating that everyone believes, that I am strong enough to leave all trash behind and emerge victorious. A few days back, I was invited by a group of large number of YMD's, asking me to help them with their studies. Finally, on the day of the introductory level exam(18th November), I received a very warm and encouraging welcome from all the members of my district who were present at the venue.

Now, I can firmly affirm, amidst all the problems and sufferings of life, the only way out to achieve absolute victory and happiness; is through earnest chanting, lots of studies and our sincere practice as a true Soka Gakkai member.

I would now like to end with a passage from Ikeda Sensei, “If you underestimate the power of daimoku and use other strategies, you will loose in the end. There may be times that you will experience great sufferings and deep sorrow. There will be nights, when tears will not stop flowing. There may also be times when you are terribly hurt. At such times, my heart will be open to you. I am always here to listen to you, I too, will share your tears with you. You don’t need to tell me anything if you are happy. I can tell that by looking at your face. Just tell me about the problems and pain that you have. I will carry half of your heavy burden and walk together with you”

I seek Sensei. Thank you!!